Life
hey all,
it has been a while… i actually stopped updating my blog because of 2 things. A certain loyal reader was saying that my writing has become drier and secondly, because i don’t really feel comfortable with people really knowing a lot about my life.
So why am i here? well, boredom for one. For the past 3 months or so, my left heel has been growing something called "heel spur" it was only about 1.5 months ago that i actually succumbed to the pain and stopped playing badminton altogether. Good news is, it’s better now. Bad news is, it’s still here.
I do hope it goes away soon, well, i kinda NEED it to go away. Life without much activities is darn boring. I was actually in quite a bad shape recently (emotionally lah~ physical part i know aldy! no need remind me! i got mirror…) because of staying at home too much. School ended for me for those who are not aware. So day in day out i am just at home. cant walk too much, it hurts, cant go to the gym or play badminton… oh~ it was so boring! dont have anything to look forward to! in a bloody state of anomie!
It got so bad that my social skills were gone! recently i met this guy who wants to be my supplier. He came to Singapore twice to meet me and still i feel ackward with him… there were many uncomftable silences! ME! master bullshitter, professor of talking cock, god of saying stupid things were just out of things to say! that’s how bad it got!
i’m better now. started going gym again, legs hurts more than previously though and am going out more. i feel like a bird who is let out of its cage! haha! hopefully i wont fall back into that state again! it sucks!
Thing is, because of the leg, i kinda hurt somebody. had a crush on her for quite some time now, but never really acted on it till recently. I was thrilled that she was willing to go out with me for a few consecutive days… well, it was her sch break at that time… anyways, i got confused when her sch started and she just disappeared! didnt return my calls or messages… so me, being the idiot with the HUGE ego and the desperate need for a new activity partner to help me get out of my anomie, kept on pushing her. The only time i realised i went too far was when she told me that she got no more feelings for me anymore and have grown tired being friends with me. OUCH! apologized to her already few days back but i dont know whether i have been forgiven. Definitely not forgotten though! women cant forget! (and here i thought guys were the ones with 2 heads! hehe!) just gotta give her her own space for now i guess.. oh well.
so lesson from me. When u are bored and feels that life cant get any worse, call me out. I shall oblige! Have been there. I know how u feel! i wouldnt wish it on anybody!
