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I am all smiles today and last night… i just came back from indonesia after spending 6 days there and it was a totally refreshing experience, it put everything back into perspective for me. I would like myself to stay this way so i’ll need something to remind myself of how super lucky i am staying in Singapore. Hence, this blog entry. be forewarned that its a little racist. no hard feelings ok? 

I went back on tuesday morning with 3 huge luggage, nope! i only brought 4shirts, 4boxers,1brief(hehe!) 2 shorts and a pair of jeans. The rest are all my goods that i’m selling in Indonesia. Was kinda wary that the indonesian customs will cause me trouble, well, they are known for it and i do kinda deserve it. i brought back, 10 pairs of shoes, 6 rackets 3 big badminton bags and a lot of other stuffs! but hey hey! no question asked. all is safe ! AMEN! went to lampung (my hometown), met my parents and ate and slept! so nice.

The next day my tasks began. I was to go to the electric distict to ask why hasnt my shop’s electricity capacity been increased, it was asked for since january. Went in, talked to the district head who i think forgot all about it, went into suicide mode and ultimatumed him to do it within a week. He stuttered and all and i think he got the message, well, thing is, my mom has asked him nicely, dined him, bribed him a sizable sum. what more can he ask for? For dinner, my mom brought me out with her friend and her daughter, she told me quietly that the mother was thinking of "giving" her daughter to me. sigh… dont know whether my mum is being thick or does she really wants grandkids that badly, but this is her.. err.. was it 6th or 8th time that i am matchmaked. oh well, so after lunch i excused myself and her to have some private time. She’s ok, looks arent fantastic but she’s friendly. Talked for a while, got her number and we went back. i simply wasnt looking for a wife now! It’ll be a long distance relationship somemore! i think i may stray! SHUSH! i DID NOT just say that! u didnt hear that ok!

ahoi! the next day came and my mom told me to represent her to go to this photographers community meeting ("arisan" for those of u who understand) to tell to everybody in the community that my shop has just installed a new machine which can print digital superior quality photos. Sounds important eh? so what was so important that she cant go? well, she has to go have her hair and nails cut and filed! complained and all but i still went. Try to imagine my reaction when the place was full of ard 200 native indonesians! i was the only one wearing jeans, easily the top 5 biggest and tallest there, (no award though!) and the only chinese! i was sticking out like a BIG, SORE, WHITE-ASSED YOUNG PUNK thumb! why must my mom always send me to this do this kind of khang tao? so did a bit mingling, gave out sample photo printouts from the new machine and got to know some of the make-up artist! (mostly are female lah! u watch too much TV ah?) then the formal part began and it came my turn to go up the podium. Went up, talked crap (i didnt get the title master bullshitter for nothing hor!) and was well-received (how not to? hehe!) one thing i got to thank my friends for though… the thing is, i was rambling on on how good the machine is and how we can help each other and be partners to futher our business till one of the older make-up artist spoke loudy in native javanese which made everybody laughed. did catch most of it except for the word "regone" which meant "price"! AHA! i answered the question in indonesian with a promotional price that i made up there and then and everybody was shocked by this big white-assed punk! HE SPEAKS JAVANESE! haha! thanks vivi, leny, farika and lulu! couldnt have done it without u! on a sadder note, when i told my mom she told me that the price i gave was very low and it was coming out of my allowance… but MOM~~~~ !!!! *stomp stomp! grumble grumble!* nobody remind her! if i’m lucky she’ll forget! hihi!

on thursday my mom had to help my dad out in the shop so i was to entertain her friends who stopped over in lampung on the way to palembang. 19 of them coming in 4 SUVs. so i wined em, dined em, mingled ard with em, joked with em and promised to visit them the next time i went back. what a nice life, they are all retirees who got nothing to do so they are going ard sumatra to up until medan. what will they be doing there? nothing.. just eat, sing, dance and be merry! of course its not the trance or techno music that they dance to lah~ it’s R&B dude! hehe! imagine that for a while k! hehe. it’s actually the traditional english dances that they do, waltz, rumba, cha2,etc. it’s actually a sign of social class when u can do them! because that means u got the 1.space in your house to practive 2.the money to engage a coach 3.got nothing to do but to practice em! hehe! dun tell your parents this ok!

Friday! what a boring day it was, i was at the shop the whole day! nothing to do. just stoned! forgot to brought my books from home to study (i actually brought my FR and macro notes back k! just that never touched em lah!) night came and the whole family went to a small simple kampong restaurant to eat. and there, my mom was at it again! he asked for the boss, who called her daughter out to "meet" me. but i was pleasantly surprised, she native indonesian but was gorgeous! YEA MOM! NOW WE’RE TALKING! ate together and like always, i excused myself and her. 20mins in and i was bored. u see, this was the super homemaker type, the shy, quiet, do-whatever-u-want-with-me-i’m-yours type! the whole time she either smiled at me, nodded, shook her head or blushed. i didnt know these kind of girl still existed! she should be put inside a museum or something! i dont want a FFL wife (feed me, fuck me and leave me alone) i need someone who can stimulate me intellectually, that can help me entertain my guests, take care of my kids, help me when i am troubled by things. someone like my mom? hehe

Saturday morning i went to jakarta. went straight to pasar pagi lama to get goods and then to careefour, there i bought instant noodles, chili sauce, dark soya sauce, 20 packets of nuts (i hope when i see the person i bought it for doesnt look like a peanut when i see her few weeks down the road!) bubble gum, and a lot of other things. Spent the rest of the day looking for foods that another person asked me to buy. most of the things in the list are easy to find and i found out where are famous for it, striked off some because it’s hard to carry and went to hunt for the rest! it was like a bloody needle in a haystack! it wasnt easy! went up and down of jakarta in the heat and in the jam found some and gave up on some! sorry! i tried k! i swear! if i lie, i’ll let u pull my ear! reached home at 8pm!

bathed and all and went out again with my singapore housemate’s brother! we went clubbing! night life in jakarta was disappointing though, heard it was bad but never had the chance to experience it first hand, uncles are married lah! if they go, their wives will pull their ear! u see, in indonesia, clubbing has a very bad connotation to it, conservative mah~ first club we went to was "bliss" it was nice. big, on the top floor of an office building and is frequented by a lot of youngsters! but i feel kinda disgusted by it… there was a lot of hookers ard! one even sat beside me! EEEKS! i hope HIV hasnt mutated and become airborned! the next club was "K7" which was a more lowly club with nude bar-top dancers (u aint NEVER, EVER! gonna get it in sg! EVER!) surprisingly, there was no hookers ard! at least i didnt see any. HOWEVER, music was bad, it was dance music mixed with the traditional indonesian dance music (dangdut). so we hung out there, had a few beers and called it a night.

Sunday i went ard picking up the food that i ordered and packing them up! OH SHIT! too much! baggage allowance was 20kg but my total stuff was 51kg! on the way to the airport there was a traffic jam somemore! one of the wheel of a bus exploded! YEA! it went kaboom! with smoke and rubber burning smell and all! the bus hobbled to the side and everybody was fine. i didnt see it though, we saw the burning smoke only. sian… when i reach the airport i only got an hour to spare to check in, settle my excess baggage and tax! i ran to everywhere i go! lucky i got play badminton! all my baggage was in, total of 43 kg. managed to bribe the guy in charge. Someone "up" there likes~ me! hehe.

back in singapore! yeay! it’s really a nice feeling… to know that everything is in order. that u dont need to bribe get things done… yep, it was really THAT bad in indonesia last time, i got to say though, it is getting harder to bribe people nowadays… good? maybe. bad? sometimes.

that’s my life in indonesia! that why i think that i’m so damn lucky to be in singapore! dont know why most of my indonesian friends prefer to stay in indonesia than in singapore. down here, i’m so free, i get to do everything i want to do, whenever i want them! i wonder will i ever be able to give the same to my parents later, to let them be in the same position as me. got money but nothing to buy, got time but nowhere to go, nothing to do… i dont have much time… my dad is 57 and my mom is 47. the business i got going right now is still far from big. "time waits for no men" a friend’s MSN nick says… damn…

hey all,

it has been a while… i actually stopped updating my blog because of 2 things. A certain loyal reader was saying that my writing has become drier and secondly, because i don’t really feel comfortable with people really knowing a lot about my life.

So why am i here? well, boredom for one. For the past 3 months or so, my left heel has been growing something called "heel spur" it was only about 1.5 months ago that i actually succumbed to the pain and stopped playing badminton altogether. Good news is, it’s better now. Bad news is, it’s still here.

I do hope it goes away soon, well, i kinda NEED it to go away. Life without much activities is darn boring. I was actually in quite a bad shape recently (emotionally lah~ physical part i know aldy! no need remind me! i got mirror…) because of staying at home too much. School ended for me for those who are not aware. So day in day out i am just at home. cant walk too much, it hurts, cant go to the gym or play badminton… oh~ it was so boring! dont have anything to look forward to! in a bloody state of anomie!

It got so bad that my social skills were gone! recently i met this guy who wants to be my supplier. He came to Singapore twice to meet me and still i feel ackward with him… there were many uncomftable silences! ME! master bullshitter, professor of talking cock, god of saying stupid things were just out of things to say! that’s how bad it got!

i’m better now. started going gym again, legs hurts more than previously though and am going out more. i feel like a bird who is let out of its cage! haha! hopefully i wont fall back into that state again! it sucks!

Thing is, because of the leg, i kinda hurt somebody. had a crush on her for quite some time now, but never really acted on it till recently. I was thrilled that she was willing to go out with me for a few consecutive days… well, it was her sch break at that time… anyways, i got confused when her sch started and she just disappeared! didnt return my calls or messages… so me, being the idiot with the HUGE ego and the desperate need for a new activity partner to help me get out of my anomie, kept on pushing her. The only time i realised i went too far was when she told me that she got no more feelings for me anymore and have grown tired being friends with me. OUCH! apologized to her already few days back but i dont know whether i have been forgiven. Definitely not forgotten though! women cant forget! (and here i thought guys were the ones with 2 heads! hehe!) just gotta give her her own space for now i guess.. oh well.

so lesson from me. When u are bored and feels that life cant get any worse, call me out. I shall oblige! Have been there. I know how u feel! i wouldnt wish it on anybody!