the start
today is monday night, the 10th of oct 2005, been thinking of trying out this blog craze for a while now… i got to admit, i thought of it as a waste of time, but ever since so many poeople are hooked to it, and even getting jailed over it, there has to be something to it~ hell, a friend of mine is even dedicating her whole year’s work into researching blogs! (yes, it’s you)
at this point in my life, i just broke up with my second gf. and wuut! after the breakup, i hate to say that boy she looks better than ever! guess a friend’s theory of looks vs relationship time is correct… he said that the way a person looks is inversely proportionate to the time the person is in a relationship. once relationship is over, the person will look good again coz it’s we’re finding a mate again! basic animal instinct! we’re all monkeys dude !
i guess life has been good. but as always, it could be better (haha! we all human lah, brudder) i’m kinda glad that when i reflect back on the past, i dont have much to regret over. I am proud of who i am. Sure i have my weaknesses (go ask my ex!) but generally, i’m a good guy, blessed with many good things. Like always, these things can be better, but generally, i’m contented with what i have and who i am. This is more than many people can say about themselves. (no! not u! u’re a friend, so you’re good! haha!)
Writing this paragraph is kinda difficult, i don’t know what to write. Should i talk about badminton? how in this few weeks i found out an area of my game that is sorely weak? or should i talk about me being unsure about my future? future with respect to what i’m gonna do after i serve my 3yr tuition grant, or just my immediate future — what should i do tomorrow?
we all have insecurities, but i do believe that things have a knack for working out for themselves. what is meant to be is meant to be, but the fun in it all is in how we try and put effort into it. I sincerely believe that humans need to be unsure of the future, if we all know our fates, then we’ll all be lazy bums staying at home "scratch backside" <— a friend’s fav phrase.
at this point in my life, time passes very quickly. one day it’s monday, the next thing i know it, it’ll be monday again! i dont even know what have i been doing with my time — i dont sleep much, i dont play comp games and such. But it’s good. i get to do whatever i want, whenever i want. But strangely, i get the feeling that i am in some twilight zone and everything is all blurrly and fuzzy. Now i’m doing this, the next thing i know i’m doing another thing. I think i need some time to sit under a tree or watch some water flowing and just ponder about life. after all, what is life if we dont have time to stop and stare? — quote from some famous guy i forgot. I actually did sit under a tree today, while waiting for an SMS from someone… but instead of pondering about life, i actually fell asleep! haha! oh life…
"nobody dies a virgin, life screws us all" — cool quotation eh!
i would like to end this session with a saying that i believe is very true. Ironically, it’s not by some famous thinker or great leaders, but it’s from a japanese animation movie titled "gundam seed destiny". the saying goes like this, "we are all unsure of the future, so what we can do is what we think is right for now. When the future unfolds, we can all be happy or regret it later" it’s not really some chiminological chimness, just something for you to ponder about when lectures becomes draggy.
k lah. i’m off now. thanks for taking time to read this crap. i had fun writing it.
