Being Single
frankly, i have been feeling kinda down lately… i think i’m suffering from a mild depression, not really used to being single you know… time with my ex was good while it lasted. REAL good and i’m thankful to her and to the "up there" for it. But hey, i made a decision to break it up so here i am sticking to it.. it kinda suck… but it’s the right thing to do… i hope i wont regret it 20 years down the road…
had some time to think about it, and with messages from a friend i have decided to just lay back and enjoy life and see what it can offer me~ i’m going to just be myself for a while, stop "playing" the dating game and just go by instinct/spontainety/mood and not thinking so much… playing the dating game has made me have mood swings! (macam girl like that know!) i like the times when i’m happy, but there’s also the downs to deal with… *sigh*
the irony to everything here is that actually tonight, i found out that i like somebody… out of so many girls to choose from, tall, pretty, long silky hair, etc. the heart has to choose a plain jane! hey~ at least it’s consistent with my motto of finding someone as screwed up as me, no more no less… haha
i’ll try this out and see how life treats me. I’m a born pessimist but i wanna learn to be an optimist… life just looks better as an optimist dont you think? but then again, chasing blind hope is also suicidal… like a lot of things in life, it’s a fine line.
Writing this has remind me of a very old song… if i’m not mistaken the song goes like "que sera sera sera… whatever will be will be will be" i’m going to download it now.. thank god for the internet and for the internet being as free as it is now! haha! i thank all of you who have taken the time to read the whole blog. i’ve been complaining quite a lot recently and the writing has been kinda depressing at times… i thank you from the deepest place in my heart~ writing this has been a good outlet and a source of comfort to me. i thank you you all!
PS. those who leave a comment like my dear rachel did will receive a free milo peng treat from me!
October 20th, 2005 at 12:03 am
Be strong my friend. Its good to be single at least you can explore what you’ve missed while you were attached. hmmm I’m sounding philosophical here. Anyway when it is the right time.. the right person will come along without you knowing it. The “person” on top will arrange everything for all of us.
Well i guess you owe me free milo peng.. thats the reason why i’m posting a comment now. hahaha.. well at least my time worth a free Milo Peng here. So how are you going to send it over my milo Peng?? Take care my fren.. just enjoy the time you have now with your friends before you are locked with a gal again.